Why?

So remember that post yesterday about how busy I am and how well things are going?

FUCKING SCRATCH THAT.

WHY?

BECAUSE I SLEPT UNTILL 9 A.M. TODAY.  

Yesterday, at the end of the workshop they said, "We'll be starting tomorrow at 9 A.M. sharp and locking the doors at 9.  Anyone not here will not receive their certification."

What the fuck is wrong with me?

Not only did I just blow $50, but the people at the Texas FIlm Commission probably think I am full of shit.  I don't think it will get back to Austin Film Society, but it still fucking pisses me off.

The kicker?

I didn't sleep till 9.

I slept till 6.  Woke up with my alarm.  Went back to sleep.  Woke up at 6:45 to my next alarm.  Set another alarm for 8.  Did NOT wake up to that one.

This happens all the time.  I am really never late unless it is something in the morning where I just can't seem to tell myself that FALLING BACK ASLEEP RIGHT NOW IS A BAD IDEA.

I am so fucking mad at myself.

It's not even the end of the world with the P.A. thing, seeing as how getting out there and doing free work is the only real way to get things done.

I just really hate being a disappointment.  Most of all to myself.